Feelings

It’s just a fear that I can’t control..Is an emotion that is stronger than my own will..I didn’t want to play this game, but you won and the winner takes the heart of the looser..In reality I’m not a looser because I believe I hold the key to your heart and emotions, but I it sucks that I didn’t know how to play this game smart enough not to fall for you this way ..Grr the frustration of feeling something and not being able to control it..I think about you all the time, each passing second, minute, hour of the day and it’s something so strange to me since I use to be so self centered..There is no words that can describe my feelings and that’s scary..

In reality there's very little to say when I feel this way..

Love..not just love it's being in love..

**sigh**

I have been extremely weary lately…It’s amazing. This summer it’s been crazy at my job, pulling 12 hour shifts and all…I haven’t had time for time for YOU and that makes me feel strange, since I always want to spend time with you..Though I hope your understandable about it and know that by the time I get home my body is ready for a main shut down to restart the system all over again..
Today is my day off and I don’t feel rested at all..I wanted to spend most of the day with you but I slept all morning trying to get some rest…I miss you! I don’t want us to grow apart {again} because of an stupidity…I have gotten so attached to you in the few months that is unexplainable…I don’t understand how and neither the reason why..I must admit that I’m afraid..The last time I felt this way it didn’t end up very pleasant, and I ended up getting hurt badly..It took me years to overcome that and now I don’t want to experience that one more time..
I just hope we can grow old together and that this is not a temporary stop for neither one of us…

Date number...?

Life changes and the changes are so radical that leave us trying to sort what just happened. That’s the same way that I was left when all these feeling evolved out of one date to the movies…We indeed had met once, twice or even three times before, but these feelings had never emerge in such way…
I have no Idea what occur that night that was so different; maybe one of stars was out there hiding in the sky touched me and awaken these feelings that I had thought for months did not existed…Then I think!? Was it the way our eyes were meeting, the way our smiles agree that this moment, this date, this time were are spending together was right?...I don’t know, but what I do know is that after that day my life changed…After that one kiss in that car I realized that I didn’t want to have you out of my life; that instead I wanted you in my life forever.